neenee

Things work out

2011-05-06T18:15:00.000-07:00

when you wish they dont but they do
when you hope to gain, you lose
we suffer a little pain
because you wont be smile forever
because you must trudge in the dust a while
because you think that the road is still long
because you whimper that life's all wrong
but somehow you live and everything will be working out

so bend to your trouble and meet your care
keep on working and hoping still

possible

2011-04-08T23:02:00.000-07:00

when everyone says you can't
and chances do seem slim
don't listen to their chant
when your spirit is discouraged
you need to feel encouraged
when impossible becoming a word
that you think it does exist
you should change by saying
anything is possible
as long as you could work for it
anything is just possible
do try
but not "do not even try"

you can do it

2011-03-31T07:24:00.000-07:00

knowing that you are suffering
but i cant do anything
but you did very well already

My aunty,
be tough
for yourself and for him
its a stage where everybody struggles..
a stage where everybody is down
but the struggle will fade..
sun rises everyday..surely he 's goin to stand up one day..
have faith in yourself

2011-03-29T18:02:00.000-07:00

a blur-ing dream
which leads me into lack of sleepness
causing me to drop tears all in a sudden
"tyger tyger"
why do u appear in my dream??

by the way
can i take a MC today??? -.-

be happy

2011-03-25T21:50:00.000-07:00

minimise your expectation
you will be happy
minimise your wants
you will be happy
immortalise your faith
you will be happy
simplify your thought
you will be happy
rectify your mistakes
you will be happy

be urself

2011-03-23T07:00:00.000-07:00

how do we know what is perfect
how perfect is supposed to be
different definition of perfect in everyone's mindset
like you 're better than anyone
but you 're just like everyone else

the worst thing that ever will do
don't be someone you're not
say you have what you havent got
say you havent got what you already have

be your own person
smake sure that you are living a happy life
no teen should live in a world of familiar pain and strife

living a life is simple but
how you going to look at it
is another question in your mind
never once doubt
that the last solution is a knife

fragile

2011-03-20T16:58:00.000-07:00

i'm fragile like thin film crushed quickly
self confidence had been run over like a shell
what else can i believe
when the commitment and tenderness are squandered

so it's the reason of why i m really weak
why do i feel no sorry no happy
why do they live in this kind of love
whereby lots of fake love is around

i 'm fragile like a scattered powder
loving it in more saturated loneliness
leaving a persistent person who i am supposed to be
when i am not supposed to be in the right time

sick week

2011-03-18T01:13:00.000-07:00

there are just a few things tat can beat you down
sick is the word that makes you freeze
losing all your energy whereby you are supposed to hv it
losing all your appetite whereby you are supposed to eat more as usual
(*but my appetite wasn't good at all since last few weeks)
losing all your laughing sound whereby you are supposed to laugh usually
but there's one thing that you could need the most - which is SLEEP MORE
the awful appearance has causing you all down
but with each passing day that it's on your mind, u find that u have to cope with
and you can cope with it

2011-03-09T17:21:00.000-08:00

eventhough you are wrong
but one day everything will be alright
and you'll see no WRONG in ur life
and the wrong will not be under feet forevermore

maybe you are doubting
Make stand and live the way that u shud have lived
slip away all the doubts
follow the way you know is true

off all the efforts to be
what you truly aspire
do let you be free while
to try once again
which could be most pleasurably

2011-02-22T22:00:00.000-08:00

express out could be one way
but hiding inside gonna drive u crazy
if you are willing to share
he or she will be willing to listen
neither sharing do the listener
Who 's going to be the initial speaker?
sometimes mistake won't be known by yourself
and you will never know if no one telling u
if you never speak out
who will understand you unless maybe God?
you ever grant permission for another to see you suffering...??

2011-02-20T05:46:00.000-08:00

she needs some time
doesn't mean that she don't like....
she needs to be close
doesn't mean that she did ignore
she needs to be more used to it
doesn't mean that she aren't trying
she needs to go through first step
doesn't mean that she are avoiding further step

just a word " breathe"

2011-02-17T04:49:00.001-08:00

I breathe in the fresh air..
And feel the wind brush through my hair
lay down and calmly rest
breathe the air to my chest

breathe me out of the air
breathe on me, breathe of god
breathe in the beauty
breathe out all the pain

never think of losing faith
whereby god is always there in mind
never dwell on the past thing
neither do the negativity holding me down

breathe me out of the confusing way
breathe in what's around me
breathe not in the darkness
just a "breathe" in this simple life

2011-02-15T14:05:00.000-08:00

or that i had a few litre of tears, but leave it out of thin
look in the mirror promising i will change sooner
when love is wrong to be loved
just lonely ,lonely that no one comes to comfort
just lonely ,lonely that you aren't appear in my memory
amount of love is useless that i would be stupid enough not to forget

Goin home

2011-01-27T14:42:00.000-08:00

filling with despair in heart
feeling of anxious
my casket around
grief in their hearts
my job is done meanwhile
wow mixed with joy,
i am goin home , home home...

leave this sooner place
and put down all hardrock in shoulder
there's sun shining brightly on my face
momma and famma's at the gate
they knows that i am
coming home, home home...

no burden no stressed life
nothing warms my heart
than the feeling of goin home
my home, my sanctuary

secret garden

2011-01-23T04:58:00.000-08:00

story of Kim Joo Won (Hyun Bin), an eccentric CEO who maintains the image of seeming perfection, and Gil Ra Im (Ha Ji Won), a poor and humble stuntwoman whose beauty and body are the object of envy amongst top actresses. Their accidental meeting, when Joo Won mistakes Ra Im for actress Park Chae Rin, marks the beginning of a tense, bickering relationship, through which Joo Won tries to hide a growing attraction to Ra Im that both confuses and disturbs him. To complicate matters further, a strange sequence of events results in them swapping bodies.

that man

2011-01-22T22:32:00.000-08:00

one man loves you
that man loves you wholeheartedly
he follows you around like a shodow everyday
that man cries as he laughs

just how..how much more do i have to gaze at you alone
this love that came like the wind
this like a beggar
if i continue this way,will you love me
just come a little nearer,little bit
if i take one more step closer to you
then you take two steps back
i am who love you is next to you

that man cries
that man's personality is very shy
so he learned how to laugh
that man's heart has many stories that
his heart is filled with scars

so that man........
he loved you
because you were the same way
yet another fool
can't you hug me before you go
i want to be loved, baby
everyday in my heart
just in my heart

my shero

2011-01-20T05:31:00.000-08:00

without words to say
loving you is a way
appreciating you is another way
never forget to say thank you

you are my shero
learning how to walk
learning how to write
learning how to climb
but what you learn still
you would never give up

she is a SHERO is my heart

you are our brave girl!!

2011-01-19T15:28:00.000-08:00

keep going and you can do it!!

passing by??

2011-01-14T22:21:00.000-08:00

who did i love til getting little drunk
tell me who u re while i am not in right way
you aren't tiring but i love u til i'm exhausted
i've never paid regardless of the safety at all

standing at the this point
i do feel dangerous while relying on feeling
he would not be a good man and lover
you told me we just passing by

do not look at me
and say you already know how to do
you feel i 'm willing to wait
more up and downs as long you are not afraid,
i 'll walk

there were so many good men
without his day still can alive
even if the future was uncertain
at least to my warmth, there is a love before

tolerance

2011-01-04T04:50:00.000-08:00

a poem creator trying to say out
what is hiding inside heart
never ever try to let go
whenever inspiration comes
get it better to express out

if you try to tolerate
the world will be yours
if you tolerate this
your influences would be there

a mumbling and scolding words
means to test your patience
holes in your head today
but tend to forget it all afterthat

if you try to tolerate
your children will be next
if you ever lost "tolerance"
it would always be there
in your dictionary....

confusion~

2010-12-29T04:50:00.000-08:00

learning new things in a second
cant make me perfect in a sudden
but without knowing it well
it will be upsetting others..

this couldn't be what i want
a previous enthusiastic girl
wasn't a right girl now..
i do wonder ....
do i make.............?

do loving....

2010-12-29T04:32:00.000-08:00

unchanging the world
but do change yourself
take one step for time
and dont settle for the less

often your task will be many
more than you do expect
if you have the courage to step on it
you will have a faith to believe it

toward anyone for any reason
insist in doing thing in loving way
rather than a hurtful way
toward becoming an exceptional person

this is to become succeeding~

life is precious

2010-12-22T04:37:00.000-08:00

Standing under the sunlight
appreciating what've been given
never know what would happen next day
hoping that miracles do happen

discover the world truthfully
fulfilling experiences day by day
optimism plays to our belief
Incident could come in a second
that we could never avoid

Do love the one beside you
long distance could never break
relationship that we insist to be with it
life is precious...

praise your heart

2010-12-21T05:54:00.000-08:00

you insist on truth
nobody could be lucky anymore than you do
lying on the bed
wondering how could this be
how could this be....

praise.......praise your heart
without dishonest and saying that
you are our dream angel
there's a pretty heart which consoling us

praying for the lord
let you ease the pain forever and ever
could you hear me at this moment?
letting you back my own side

praise......praise your heart
searching for the next phase of life
thoughtful of beloved one
whom you love will love you more..
love you more....

like a star

2010-12-10T09:16:00.000-08:00

since you bring me to this world
i would never know what 's the star
it won't talk, won't mumble
shining and shining
illuminating on our body

just like a star around you
there's what you want it to be
it's a Star where life exists
with neither love nor hate

disappearing by sight
another appearing on your eye
hope does exists if you could believe
it 's not a fantasy in life
it do happen.....

just like a star around you
you wont let your guard down
new star will rebirth shine
dead star quickens refined..

you wont

still i wonder why

2010-12-09T04:48:00.000-08:00

stepping myself into a beach
without thinking anyone but you
from day to day
i just could never stop thinking
why do you leave.....

still i wonder why
i still think such way
i still argue like this
it just wont blow off my mind..

when others say you lie
i would still believing you
when i know you really walk away
from my sight, i would still love you
you maybe feeling that i m still alive

2010-11-24T06:20:00.000-08:00

colours are all trendy
shapes are varied too
we are taken from our bottles
into mouths we 's re thrown

your heart we meet
it is upset beat
now this is just the beginning
we have much more to do

seeing you putting ur foot back in you shoe
waiting and waiting
and say,"lets go on with it

as doing every best best
you will be back somehow

if you want me

2010-11-07T03:28:00.000-08:00

Are you really here or am I dreaming
I can't tell dreams from truth
For its been so long since I have seen you
I can hardly remember your face anymore
When I get really lonely and the distance causes only silence
I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me

Are you really sure that you believe me
When others say I lie
I wonder if you could ever despise me
When you know I really tried
To be a better one to satisfy you for you are everything to me
And I'll do what you ask me
If you let me be free

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me

nothing

2010-11-02T06:16:00.000-07:00

luck is giving me a sign...
and it should be bad?
feeling nothing want to do..
nothing want to care...
nothing...just nothing...

go ahead with life

2010-10-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

abandoning work by side
struggling life head towards
no inspiration no love
feels like giving up
giving up......

appearance of your face in my mind
stopping me from giving up
asking me to go ahead
light shinning above you
Door's always opening for you

GO go go ahead with life
nothing could take you down
taking on happiness and sorrow
being true to yourself in this life

the negative side seems to down
but starting to glow by
optimistic mind
open your arms to life

FOr you, G~~

you just can't let go

2010-10-19T21:16:00.000-07:00

seeing a curiosity in your eyes
i know you could try to stop me
i know you want to hold me back
i know you want me to stay...

You just can't let go
my heart is so disguised
there is nothing more to say
but to say love you ever and ever..

feeling the pain in your heart
you could deny to say goodbye
telling me that you gonna miss me
you deserve to have much as you could

you just can't let go
a pieces of knife in my heart
that you ever make me cry
i would never forget your face

there's nothing to say
but to say love you forever

i am wondering....

2010-10-12T08:49:00.000-07:00

i am wondering...
wondering....
why do i get sick??
it is my fault??
or is chance the culprit??

but do u marks me as different??
difference confuses me..
telling myself
worrying doesn't help me..
my heart beats as does yours..

just why is it weaker than ...............

only one...........

2010-10-08T10:05:00.000-07:00

The loneliness of nite alone
the search for strength to carry on
my eyes had no more tears to cry
my ever hope has seemed to die
you surrounded me with endless love
and all the things i couldn't see

all my hopes, my dreams
are suddenly reality
a kind of love that's truly real
a guiding light that 'll nvr fade

Your spirit pulls me through
every night i pray
or bended knee..
you are the breath of life in me
the only one..
only one that sets me free

Bingo..congratS me

2010-10-04T09:11:00.000-07:00

get caught in cold
throat feelings uneasy
head fore is "burning"
bingo~~
SICK d

Tourist attraction~~ nice nice....

2010-09-14T08:40:00.000-07:00

LAndends

Whitby

York City

pissed off

2010-09-11T11:25:00.000-07:00

pissed off!!
noe how's the feeling
of being bothered when

YOU ARE CONCENTRATING IN STUDYING??

BING BANG BONG~~

WHY DON'T YOU JUST DISMANTLE THE DOOR??

PISSED!!

Contradiction

2010-09-09T09:53:00.000-07:00

contradiction...
how's the way to treat u
good?
but not from the heart
bad?
but isn't it too cruel??

why do u build up a piece of knife in my heart??

the truth that you leave

2010-09-04T13:11:00.000-07:00

MEmorable video~

2010-09-02T12:04:00.000-07:00

THANK you friends~

2010-09-02T11:28:00.000-07:00

when inspiration comes,
here comes a mood to blogging

Thank you, friend, for all the things for past few years
that means so much to me
your concern
your understanding
your advices

Thank you for listening with your heart
for cheering me when i am done
for waking me up when i am not myself
for bring out the best in me

Thank you for letting me to lean on when problems appear
for silly times we Laugh out loud
For taking care of me when i am sick
for neutralizing all the pains

For all the time we spend,
thank you all my friends~

big head...

2010-06-23T12:22:00.000-07:00

LONG TIME NO BLOGGING~~~

Big head...head goin to become bigger and bigger...mummy, daddy, bros are sleeping now...all of my buddies.....but i m here making my head bigger because of this studying life in UK!!now is 20.23pm~ daytime in uk is longer than nightime..the day is still bright now, i was thought that i will be suffering in this sudden change of weather here..but i am not,

i miss my home..miss hometown foods..miss everything~~ second experience of leaving home and come to a new place...missing everything..

live wif myself

2009-12-12T06:21:00.000-08:00

I have to live with myself, and so
I want to be able, as days go by,
Always to look myself straight in the eye.
I don't want to stand with the setting sun,
And hate myself for things I have done.
I don't want to keep on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself,
And fool myself, as I come and go,
Into thinking that nobody else will know
I want to go out with my head erect,
But here in the struggle for fame and self
I want to be able to like myself
I don't want to look at myself and know
That I'm bluster and bluff, an empty show.
I can never hide myself from me;,
I never can fool myself, and so,
Whatever happens, I want to be
Self-respecting and conscience free.

sleepless night

2009-11-26T10:12:00.000-08:00

it's 2.16am now...i still cant sleep, maybe due to slept too much this noon time. sigh! hot day, hot weather...i prefer the weather to be colder as like last few days..it could another reason why i cant sleep..missing someone too..
a gud fren of mine is enjoying her holiday at seabull..when getting nearer wif her eventhough she is at hometown now, i m missing her more, coz it's hard chance for us to meet with each other..ah be, can meet u soon, n i m very happy for it..
MASter degree or Acca?? i can either choose one of it, but most probably i will choose acca. but it could make me more suffering, coz acca is damn tough, i duno whether i can afford to pass all of tat 5 papers...by the way, my parent aso wont let me go to pursue master degree...coz they nvr heard of this uni, so wont be contributing 7ok for me to go there....

need peace

2009-11-06T21:49:00.000-08:00

friends are being there for us to appreciate
but for us to ignore if u like
nothing's wrong and right
not as you think, stressly
thinking that you are always right

all i need is speaking out frankly
but not criticizing
but not bearing by one of urself

all we want is peace
all we need is peace
all we ask is peace
all we crave is peace
all we lack is peace
Peace is all we want

something we can ask
before it's blown
something we can avoid
before it's becoming worst

坏结局？？

2009-10-30T10:33:00.000-07:00

好久没有动你了,好久没有写自己的心情,情绪在你身上

或许想说的,想表达的..实在太多了...说不完的故事...

"你你你"啊....这就是你要给我的结局吗?

没有人看戏希望看到坏结局，我也不另外

不过你还是要给我“这样”的结局？

人生就是那样，你想要得到的东西，就它偏偏不让你得到。

遇到性格如何的人，能不能接受，也是看你自己要不要去接受

有时你遇到的情形，让到你没有办法选择。。

除非你太执著，是人家拿你没办法，不是你拿人家没办法。。

不过这是你做人的定义？？有时伤害到身边的人，你知道吗？？

有时想做回自己。。不过好难噢。。明明不想做，不过最后还是做了

可能这就是我吧。。。别人不当它是一回事，我不能不当它不是一回事。

谁是完美的？？没人是完美的。。你不去接受他的那面，你要如何和他相处？

因为你的执着，闹到不愉快。。值得吗？？这就是做朋友的定义？

遗憾~~

found..........

2009-10-03T01:17:00.000-07:00

open ur diary
sort out ur shattered mood
u dont know how
u cant remember anything
but i trust
just having mutual love leads to charms
but u get disappointed again n again
our love seems like melting ice cream
sweet?yet it doesnt glisten the same way
i will repeatedly go over things wif u daily
so we can recover tat lost love happiness
how could i forget the feeling
if i lost you?
in a sily way
still thinking that we could be together
i'd wish after the stars
if u re not by my side
even realizing my dream would have no meaning

only present all this kind of person as gift?

2009-09-23T06:07:00.000-07:00

appreciate of what you do (optimistic)
also appreciate of what you do ( pessimistic)

making frens with each others....
understand each others more clearly....
being closer with each others...
problems happen within each others...
just end up with only greeting with each others...
only when meet up...in a coincidence way...
this is ur so called "fren"?

maybe sometimes u wan something tat u would want for..
but you cant get it...but issit u keep tolerate with others..
but do anyone tolerate with u??isst u re more soft hearted..?
even if u angry..other ppls takes it as small deal...
but this is wat only u can do by accepting this kind of treatings?

when sb needs u, u will by his/her side...
but when u need sb, u will find him/her??
sometimes u feel upset by sth,but will u say out???
throwing out all uneasy words..do ppl take it seriously??
asking u not to think so much...but please stand in this position,
then you will know how it feels...

u prefer to turn the time back to last time,
when being asked to further studies at another place..
maybe it could be a best choice...but can u go back??
but it's too late now

if u like sb, u would like do to anything jz for her,his own goods..
but by ur attitude, u think he/she can stand for how longer??
by uproar,criticism n so on...how long he/she can stand any longer??

they tell u, they are this kind of person..
so wat u do?? accepting this kind of person..
but if u tell them, u are this kind of person...
will they accept??will they tolerate?

only present all this kind of person as gift to u??

shit life

2009-07-29T10:25:00.000-07:00

sometimes blogging depends on mood...when i hv many things to say, i can write alot..
happy birthday to small small~most eldest guy in my kl home....one year old again....haha......

enough of this kind of life...one word to describe:"sien", i wanna go shopping, go sing k,go watch movie...wateva u can let me do, but jzz nt to stay at home....onlining, facebook-ing.......at the most important thing, doing assignment...next week i 'm goin to hv one test and two presentation...next week i m goin to kill u all, most busiest week in this semester..now my heart itchy itchy, really feel like wanna go out....sigh.......gosh!!!hate this kind of life...........

weekly activities~

2009-07-03T10:10:00.000-07:00

yesterday was yl and yk's birthday..we hv bought a 3kg shaped key cake...lol~too large til we have decided to giv some to other ppls to eat..btw, we have alots of fun last nite, went to 4 season to hv our dinner....

time runs very fast....week 7 of this sem is coming soon~dy half of this sem, after finishing one test, there's still few assignments waiting for me~but this is so called"college life" i heard from many seniors saying tat" appreciate wat u hv gone tru college life now, dun ignore ur SO called college life, after u working, then u will know wat is most hard life for u to pass.btw, only SFM making me headache, headache n still headache..its assignment is killing me...stucking half way~no way...still gonna think of "wateva" way to finish it...gambateh~

i am kinda phobia of sth...once i think it, i will feel very hateful to myself..duno why~but it will never drive me crazy~~jz a part of life...so it means not much to me~haha..

parents coming soon~yea...but H1N1 getting serious..can we jz go anywhere as we like?hmmm...hopefully..maybe dad n mum scare of it too...mum was joking n saying tat we might stay at hotel whole day...oh gosh~oh..wearing mask walking around kl? or my another idea is wat my bro always say...dun bring me to "HoLanD" lol...so sitting inside car then i will u go Holand..LOL~~

college life(nothing good)

2009-06-14T02:08:00.000-07:00

jz feel like wanna blogging nw..and i was soundless for few weeks....i m jz hving normal life right now..go to college by 8am(almost everyday T.T, causing me to wake up at same time on weekends too...swt~~)all the assignments have reached to our hand...gonna start do it lo...stress day is yet to come,but will have to face it sooner...

After back here, the kl weathers seems like nvr change before...only "HOT" (jing jia beh tahan)...always sweat while goin to college, entering into lec hall or tutorial class is nicer..but hate coming out from it......eventhough the sun was not hot,but the air was totally affected by haze..

Last few days was a really bad day to me..i jz ate a plate of mee goreng at wangsa..after back to home,i keep rushing to toilet...if u all ask me how many times, i only can ans tat it is uncountable...then my 2 roommates accompany me go to seek doc..coz it seems like a serious problem for me..it is ridiculous..not more than 5 mins after eating a small bowl of porridge(cooked by my dear roommate), i start rushing to toilet..

"U"pls go away~~

2009-05-28T08:04:00.000-07:00

mom is like tat,daughter is like tat too...daugther getting better..now mom's turn....one sickness hvn fully recover, another sickness comes again...n yet dad goin to transfer to kapit soon...jz nw talked a bit rudely to him...sorry...coz i keep on begging him to transfer back to sibu..he said tat it is too late..even wan to transfer back aso need to take some time, so i was a bit emotional jz nw..but i dunwan mom to be leave alone at home, who is goin to take care of her if she 's nt feeling well again....i was being asked to quit my studies last time but i refused to do so...wat can i do now??wat i can do is only asking my dad to stay...sigh~hope so~

moody again~

sch reopen day..

2009-05-24T04:03:00.000-07:00

finally back kl...sch reopens tml lol, kinda miss tis kind of life after we all hv missed it for three months, results dy out lo~no more any complaining of it..but heard tat some of my frens cant proceed to second years...sobsob..sad of it..my partner of bullfight~hmm~lve at gk only..surely there is still alots of chance for me to find u and bullfight together...gotta miss tis fren alot....no more cold jokes anymore..sobsob..btw, a hard n tough path to go..advance second year might be very hard.....add oil la...

intention of goin back

2009-05-06T21:42:00.000-07:00

after back to hometown, only gonna spend one week at hometown,another week will be at cat town..nt for holiday...but go to suffer??(in BAD words to say it)haih~bro told me it might be painful bit bit....lol...tat "bit bit" might mean very much to me..but i cant reject dy, good luck ba..jz like another burden to me again..last time exam , nw...... 14th 14th 14th of tis month...
now another bad new...my flight is being delayed again~delay to 7.50pm..i will be reaching home at around 10 sth or 11..sorry to soon~only can find u to yumcha nex day lo~ tata MU...tata fatty sam...see u all nex sem~

瞒准的性格？？

2009-04-30T06:14:00.000-07:00

表面上快乐开朗，其实心里多半比较痛苦

痛苦多来自于家庭的　不合和在友情、爱情上的失意

显得很心软的话，也许是因为自己的慷慨招来些对自己的伤害

心软、善良，畏缩地给别人帮助，以致于形成小家子的假象

很少有向亲人说出心声的机会，因此，朋友在眼中更是显得尤为重要

是一个非常和平、不记仇，不会为此对你进行报复

一个伤感者的角色，爱听悲伤的音乐、喜欢广阔的东西

人情绪变化不太稳定，他们善解人意，能够短时间内进入不同的状态

人一生大都不顺心，他们生活的条件和机遇总不是和他们浓烈的人格

不太重视衣着外表，实际，认为我有内在，还怕什么外表差，不到衣服实在是不能穿时，很少去购衣
体不太好，不过消化很良好，心脏不太好

不安静的夜

2009-04-29T23:15:00.000-07:00

薰衣草精油香味漫游在思绪的周围
我还在回忆里徘徊搜寻你的妩媚
笔跟纸甜蜜亲嘴它们忘情的搞暧昧
你的名字写一万遍祝福要怎么写
你带走整个世界只留下这黑夜
冷了要拥抱谁眼前只剩一条棉被
爱情岌岌可危所有付出灰飞烟灭
谁都别来安慰我不想承认我有流泪
爱到鞠躬尽瘁这条路走得很疲惫
想要赶过伤悲自己却在终点前崩溃
记事本往事一堆掺杂我多少的憔悴
最后空白无言以对形容孤独滋味
你带走整个世界只留下这黑夜
冷了要拥抱谁眼前只剩一条棉被
爱情岌岌可危所有付出灰飞烟灭
谁都别来安慰我不想承认我有流泪
爱到鞠躬尽瘁这条路走得很疲惫
想要赶过伤悲自己却在终点前崩溃
爱情岌岌可危所有付出灰飞烟灭
谁都别来安慰我不想承认我有流泪
爱到鞠躬尽瘁这条路走得很疲惫
想要赶过伤悲自己却在终点前崩溃

sibu, i m back soon~

2009-04-24T05:15:00.000-07:00

mom is always a powerful girl in front of me..once u dun agree wat she wan u to do, sure there will be sth bad happen again~but tis time i got no reason to reject, actually i never think of goin back to hometown on may, but a calling from mom n said: " i dy booked flight ticket for u...on 7th of may, then back on 24th of may..LOL~~wat m i gonna say again?i jz say oh~ok lo...once i hear it, dono whether i shud be happy or nt..happy coz i no need stay at kl and yet all my housemates wont be around on tat period, unhappy coz i m goin to meet someone very vital to me..haha~my dear...my honey..my beloved uncle..T.T~~good luck ba~~

23 apr

2009-04-23T03:17:00.000-07:00

2 more to go...everything goes well tis time..
sigh sigh, my laptop hvn reach, i m thinking of goin back to hometown..but i might join the langkawi trip wif my frens and housemates, n yet cant estimate when do tat god damn dell company send my laptop to my kl home..shit~ ntg can i do at all. kl weather hot like shit...living at dessert?? no raining for few days dy...til gonna take bath at night time coz too hot til "SWEAT"???
wat to do if nt goin back to hometown??go here to lepak a while..then go there to lepak a while..lol..go to travel around west malaysia?? considering~~
there is something tat i cant change...hv became a fate for me..tml will be better??or WORSE? i dono..no one noe, only god know..so jz live happily ba~

feelingless

2009-04-19T05:50:00.000-07:00

how can one explain tis?
how can one show the feeling
that re no longer anymore?
how is the feelingless ruptures?
sometimes,
there shud be some emotion coming
tat made u go numb
used to be passionate
with everything tat would come
it hurts when see u
it wont hurts when din see u
it was used to be like tat last time
but as feelingless as wat i hv nw
feelingless..feelingless......

exam exam exam

2009-04-10T02:55:00.000-07:00

geo asked me whether do my emotion n mind was still being bothered recently..my ans is i m only hv time n right to think of my exam stuffs..parents keep calling everyday,asking me wat m i doin..got do my revision or nt..i know they re worrying, n yet i still dare to fool around, dont wanna do my revision, still thinking of other stupid matters? i dunwan to let them worry, so gonna try my best to handle exam tis time..

09 apr

2009-04-09T07:03:00.000-07:00

FInally booked my laptop..haha, yahoor~~ straightly send to my home nex week..m waiting for it ..hmm, leave few more weeks..nothing has made me stressed except exam..deserve for it..btw, thinking of whether goin back to hometown on may or nt. it might be less than 2 weeks, gosh..sitting at kl home aso nothing to do, goin back hometown aso ntg to do..dad n mom asked me to decide myself..

2 april

2009-04-01T16:55:00.000-07:00

Standing alone under sunshine
seeing smiley face all around
supposing to be one of them
do you ever think of it?
do you every try of it?
listening to every single word
all advices have came
do you ever listen to it?
decision is under your control
do you ever control it?
or you was been controlled?
jumping out from hole
everything will be more clearly
everything will be more smooth
everything will be fine
you are supposed to be ONE of them

moonlight~

2009-03-30T05:29:00.000-07:00

since was young,mom sang a song
acc me thru the spri,sum,aut and win
a light guided tru the long distant nite
goin to move forward
after growing up, seeing ppls around
remains silently
put their heart locked
fortunely, with your warmth song
together with me
wont ever forget the intention
gradually ends at both
m nt alone in dropping tears
thru the unfamiliar streets
like the same moon
evaporation of tears
"love" let ppl can resist the pain
like the same moon
placed at my heart
"love" let u acc me
so i will have direction
happiness, sadness
will ever let me realize
how to grow up~

人生就是这样

2009-03-26T07:03:00.000-07:00

什么是人?人是一个天使，把快乐和幸福带给每个人。。人是一个魔鬼，让身边的人痛苦，人是一个大钟摆，左右摇晃，不知所措。。。。。。。。。。。人生就是场一次又一次得到又失去的轮回。妈妈生一个人一生的过程，而一个人真的想读懂人生，就要看一个人的经历，有什么样的经历的人就会对人生有不同的看法，这会受一个人的世界观人生观的影响，但真的问人生是什么样的时候。。一个人满脑子都会是无奈，所以人生也就象一场游戏，不要去问游戏是什么样的，只要好好的去玩就行了。。遇到没你玩得的游戏，就有的让你好受了。。人生就是人活着，活着就要承担各种各样的事情。。人生就是被骗和骗人的过程。。人生就是：爱过，恨过，分过，甜过，苦过，成功过，失败过，，总之，人生就是一个人从出生到老去的过程中所经历的种种历经。。看你要如何去对待。。人生就是让你突然而然有病就有病。。没让你夺走自己的性命，不过要你挣扎下去，这就是你赐给我的礼物吗?

need a break

2009-03-25T07:19:00.000-07:00

my Mood?? fine~~
my Health?? getting worse~ starting from tat day, i almost need it everyday??why??pressure?but i dun think i hv so much pressure..i cant think of any reason why i need it everyday...jz it come in a sudden..occured seriously once at sam house...then at office...at home jz nw too...hope nex tue faster come..i really need a break...staying at hometown is a non-pressure place for me..but i think i only will back on sept lo~~miss dad n mum...sobsob...mum goin to stay alone from monday til thursday starting from june or july??hope u will get used to it....

23 mar

2009-03-23T07:59:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to dad ...and ah don~~2 D....lol :p , m gonna quit my job soon..lol~but gonna prepare for exam soon...seems like everyone goin back..leave me alone at kl here??duno..duno whether they back together or not..coz gonna back for ching ming..it's impossible for me to go back la..haha

my personality?haha

2009-03-20T08:34:00.000-07:00

你念念不忘的人 - 你小时候的玩伴,你是一个有感情洁癖但是又很害怕孤独的人,你经常会因为周围的一些小事情而感到失望 ,最害怕的就是自己的热情去贴了别人的冷漠。所以对于你来说,小时候玩伴那种毫无心迹的坦白的友情是最珍贵的。你是一个很珍惜身边的人的人,但是也要懂得选择值得信任的人才对啊

性格解構：這類型的女子通常都較為溫和穩重，腳踏實地。由於冷靜謹慎，所以更細微的環節她都能夠兼顧得到。誠實認真，責任心強，\r處理事情極有條理，自然容易贏得別人信任。耐力韌性也一樣驚人，富有戰勝重重困難的莫大力量。無疑的她不論對待任何人，都能夠表現得親切大方，但偶然間的太過自我中心，會令她無法與其他人協調。其實，她輕易受到別人的影響本來是個優點，但過分堅持自己的一套做法，就會變得固執。建議：想吸引她注意，你適宜穿得穩重，襯衫西褲最穩當。由於她對任何細微的環節都察覺得到，所以，你對她亦要處處表現出特別細心，向她坦誠，就肯定會贏得信任。

你对异性的警戒心满强的唷，或者说你慎选你的异性朋友，所以你的精神状态会有些紧绷。与异性的相处，精神的交流远重於一切，你在恋爱方面追求的是柏拉图式恋情。虽然不能说你不好，但交朋友有时也不必这麽严肃嘛!换个角度看异性，你也可以与他们轻松相处。

being defeated...

2009-03-16T07:25:00.000-07:00

the most results i hv get.....was being defeated this time, jz now father calling n asking, almost crying while talking with him..but he said tat it is dy a fact..so gonna face it, n i only will work til end of this month..luckily my boss let me go..sigh...accounting frens....almost all of them at least failed one sub...duno why..i hv failed my most favourite sub...why why why?but i knew tat i hv nt done well in it..but nt serious til fail..i was almost unconfidence inside exam hall for every subs last time....sorry for letting my parent down...they thought i was joking jz nw..but they din scold me at all..but i hope they did it jz nw..mum asked me to stop working too, last time they put so much pressure on me, put high expectation on me..i was afraid of calling them after checking my results..yet i noe they will call me..but jz waiting for their calls..if last time, surely my mum will scold me,but she did nt scold me this time...god bless me

14 mar

2009-03-14T01:58:00.000-07:00

stamina weaks...playing badminton wif jia jz nw, only played a while jz then tired dy...no more energy, this is the consequence of seldom exerise..haha...called my dad jz nw, asking for goin to travel after working...he said need to consider 1st...really hope tat he will let me go play before my new sem starts..let me go to my bro there aso can..jz wan a break....sorry if let u all down sometimes...but i aso duno wat to do..a fren asked me:" do u really hv to choose a struggling way to live ur life now? everything actually is under ur control.." my ans is i wont want my life to be like tat, jz my heart never think,never do as wat my mouth always say out..hope after passing day by day,week by week will be better..

careless whisper

2009-03-12T23:47:00.000-07:00

Time can never mend the careless whispers of a good friend
To the heart and mind,
ignorance is kind
there's no comfort in the truth
pain is all you'll find

Should've known better

I feel so unsure
as I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor
as the music dies, something in your eyes
calls to mind the silver screen
and all its sad good-byes

I'm never gonna dance again
guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool

Should've known better than to cheat a friend
and waste the chance that I've been given
so I'm never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you

Tonight the music seems so loud
I wish that we could lose this crowd
Maybe it's better this way
We'd hurt each other with the things we'd want to say
We could have been so good together

如果

2009-03-06T18:53:00.000-08:00

如果有这样的结果，我不会要认识你
如果有这样的结果，我不会要喜欢上你
如果有这样的结果，我应该当时就跟你讲清楚
如果有这样的结果，我不会要你现在还在等
如果有这样的结果，我应该听父母的话去外国读书
如果有这样的结果，我不会让你做出那样的事
如果有这样的结果，我不会要自己心软
如果有这样的结果，我不会要自己再掉眼泪
如果有这样的结果，我不会去喝咖啡

如果有这样的结果，如果知道如果就不会发生不愉快的事。。以上所写得关连很多事

06 mar

2009-03-06T06:10:00.000-08:00

today do filing...whole day still doin filing..finally stop at 5 sth...went to ate mcd together wif colleagues, hving alots of fun, but mum keep calling in afternoon time,not only her..a fren keep calling too. then i throw my hp inside my bag,sorry for saying tat i m nt able to pick up any calls tat moment..after back, go walk walk a while at klcc..then mum called me and nagged again...sorry for being tat rude to u...

getting better??

2009-03-04T22:46:00.000-08:00

a fren calls and sms me everyday...asking tat whether m i feeling more better after passing day by day....i tell him:" yes~but u cant expect me to be fully recovered..time is a cure~~"he said tat he totally agreed wif me..thankz for helping me..i appreciate for ur helping..but sorry to say tat my ans is still no...u request me to do so in order to help myself faster..but tat is wat i hv to do myself n without another person..

wat a unlucky day

2009-03-04T05:01:00.000-08:00

this few days re unlucky day..yesterday lrt broke down ,then duno which place get flooded...lrt can move...cars on the road aso cant move...so sam,ster n i went to eat kfc, then walked to pav to wait for don...around 10.30 pm only reach home..tired...today got a call from mum..keep...complain and complain...dad's goin to transfer to kapit soon...so gonna leave my mum alone at home from monday to thursday??sigh..three children dy outside, nt by ur side..now still wanna separate mum and dad...she was saying til almost crying..coincidencely, i was stressed with my works..so mood kinda bad this evening time..hope tml will be better....

working day

2009-02-27T05:09:00.000-08:00

today is second day of working..so far so good..jz need to wake up early then gonna get ready to be squeezed like "sardin" inside lrt..then when back home, i hv to face same situation..haiz...my bro asked me to reach lrt within 6 to 6.15pm..coz it might not be tat crowded, so i try to do as wat he told me..but it was still a bit crowded, lol~~
i cant live without u...u noe??really cant live without u....uuuuuuuuu..."YOU", sure everyone will ask whether m i falling in love wif someone..my answer for cant living with you is not a person...but is a medicine...my heart was pained again inside my office jz now, my colleagues was shocked.....luckily i did brought my medicine,or else many ppls will kill me..my beloved uncle(Dr) told me tat must always bring it whereever i go...like a "FU"

changing

2009-02-13T19:56:00.000-08:00

Its getting pretty good lately…. yeah, maybe it is really good,maybe it is nt really good……. i don know whether it’s really what i am looking for but the more i feel that that is my vision, the more i think that i am no longer the girl i am……
If i dont grow up and become mature nw…. i know that in future it will be harder 4 me………. but if i do,….. i m sure going to hate 4 the new me…….or maybe i dy hv become mature without my notice and i hv already used to it but i just donwan to accept it……. many of my friends say that i am mature, plan ahead..yeah, looking at this sound pretty good
i just want to be a simple me………. becus as u started to notice tat urself is growing up, you will started to notice that u will lose the old u….. lose the good times when u donhv to think so much ahead, lose the good times when all u hv to do is eat and sleep and that’s it, lose the good times when u and a bunch of frens laughing at urselves doing silly stuff……….
yeah, i also have argued be4 tat all of this will not change because i will try to keep it… really? when u started to use ur mind to think future, u should notice that u re changing…..

12/2/09

2009-02-11T22:03:00.000-08:00

last night went into my" favourite" consultation room,meeting my beloved uncle(Dr), dad and mum still can talk wif him for half an hour...then how bout me?suffering inside..sigh~i love to come back to hometown, coz of my relaxing time and do wateva i wan..but nt goin to tat place for checking up....i did it for many times before, n there is no way for me to escape after coming back here..last nite spend few hundred for buying my medicine..worse than those old ppls...i asked my bro a que yesterday:" am i troublesome?"then he told me not to worry bout this..n yet i m still tat young, so must cure it now...
u noe wat kind of person i am,something really cant be forced...u said tat u can do anything as long as i go out on tat day, no matter how hard u re trying to do to get my attention, i only can tell u tat it is useless.

眼淚笑了

2009-02-10T21:52:00.000-08:00

Imagine a painness but you did not look back
my tears re being controlled and nt allowed to drop

Memories do not go with u but crowded in my heart
I hv the responsibility to make it deserve 2 be treasured

thankz for letting me down be4
thankz to myself for not thinking too much

my tears hv laughed, who would to be like me?
standing still bravely, searching for light and heat
facing of u hv made me so missing u
becus u are once a guest of mine

is beautiful and perfect
singing a song
when thinking of u
i m nt humble instead
i hv no regrets becus i hv loved u
once, and very deeply

11/2/09

2009-02-10T20:11:00.000-08:00

back to hometown lo....ah be...missing u,wish u hv a good journey to melbourne..keep in touch yeah, dun tell me tat u re guilty coz of the presenti only can meet u nex year, so must take good care of urself..remember to buy a webcam yeah, haha..remember our promises..
coming back for 2 weeks, then goin back to work soon lo...

listener rather than speaker

2009-02-05T05:58:00.000-08:00

if i care for everything, i will be very tiring and annoying..now, i prefer to be a listener more than a speaker...i m nt goin to giv any comments...since very very long time ago, i have been bothered by ur problems...i doesnt mean tat i dunwan to care for u anymore...jz i hav did my part,n yet u dunwan to listen to me, i really duno wat else can i do. i was once scolded by u becos of him before, but i still treat u as my fren. if u did tat to me last time, i am sure tat i will scold and shoot u back, wont even care bout u coz my patience degree wasnt tat good last time and i m no longer tat "jenny"(who was childish,small gas and impatience girl last time and maybe i gonna thankz someone who has made me changed)...u was cried n talked wif me in phone before,then i advice u..u will listen at first,but i think u forget aftertat....i m tiring of u guys' problem..summore involve me in...quarreling becoz of me??it is nt worthwhile to do tat coz of me..if i m tat "BA GUA", i m goin to tell everyone i noe in this world i really dunlike him..so wat hv u scare of??scare tat i will be together wif him one day?u noe i wont..so wat for u keep mentioning about me in front of him?and he keep do sth tat spoils our friendship....i really dun understand....i has once told u tat , u still hv ur good future...something worth living for, someone worth living for, nt worth living for rubbish ppl, nt worth living for rubbish conflicts, childish conflicts....then u will hv a better life...thankz godness if ur parent let u further ur studies at kl last time, so u wont hav to face this kind of problems....please...wake up for urself..nt for others...

speechless~

2009-02-03T18:27:00.000-08:00

since last year til now, wateva conflicts u guys hv, u will tell me, then i will advice u...but this time i m goin to tell u, tat i am speechless...i hope tat i can help, but i m nt able to help u..why u so careless?why u duno how to protect urself??i really feel hopeless towards both of u..i really wish u can learn from ur mistakes and grow up...i hv told u everything tat i supposed to say, but it seems like u never listen, i cant always take care of u, u must noe how to handle ur problem, u are dy goinna be 21 soon..u noe urself cant drink tat much, then why do u still drink so much???if u re at kl here, u will be worsen than wat had happened in sibu..n yet tat person is him again..he said tat he will be responsible for it..i hope he will do it...

be tough

2009-02-02T03:25:00.000-08:00

noe u re hiding ur feeling...sometimes i face this kind of problem too..it is nt easy to say forget then forget..but u cant cry, cant be tat weak, mus noe how to protect urself..tat's wat my fren tell me..appreciate everyone beside u, but nt the one who u mention..nt worthwhile for u to do so...i do believe u need time to cure urself.be tough

LAST PAPER~

2009-01-20T15:22:00.000-08:00

yeah...today i m goin to hv last paper soon~~now is 7.22 am, my exam will be starting at 9 til 12..after 12pm, all gonna be over...so exciting for it..after exam, we re goin to "lepak"..after studying and burning midnite oil for so long time, we shud relax and go shopping~go sing k..do wateva we wan..my dear roommates, ur panda eyes will be recovering soon, no worries...
wat shud i say bout it??i m better..so u dun worry, geo...thankz for giving me advices..mybe it's jz a crush, but i m better after listening to all this "powerful" advices..thankz to those who hv helping me this few days..jia , geo and ahbe...luckily i still can handle my tax and pm...if nt, really gonna stay back to resit nex sem..good luck to everyone in exam la..

defeated

2009-01-14T21:47:00.000-08:00

being defeated..i duno whether i still can handle the following 3 subs...lost confidence..frustrating...stressful...i did nt do well in my first paper this morning, this paper is my favourite sub..i duno wat hv i wrote this morning..my mind was totally blanked jz nw, n yet i giv away 10 marks.i cant even remember a basic formula..really gonna slap myself.. Thinking back when i was still living inside hostel, a fren asked me:" when can i get the jenny who i hv known back?" i only tell her to wait...

sickness + exam

2009-01-08T19:20:00.000-08:00

sometimes i think negatively....exam period is always like a suffering day for me...yet plus my sickness...really damn freaking tiring of it...nowadays, i can afford to sleep for 5 or 6 hours per day..still i hv to suffer from heart pains everynite..like a old ppl, i cant live without medicine....a person has once requested me to quit my studies,then go back to hometown..i hv walking forward for my career in half way, so i cant let it go..i dunhv tat ability to do so...
everyday i go to lib....til noon time..then go back to continue studying again..repeat and repeat doin the same thing everyday..after exam, i shud be happy..coz cny is coming soon..but i dunhv tat kind of exciting feeling at all..coz i m goin back on 7 of feb...i only can spend my cny time together wif my bros..but nt my parent..this is the first time i m goin to celebrate cny at kl...but nt at grandma house..kinda sad bout it...after finishing exam, i can still directly go back to hometown, but i cant leave my 2 bros here alone..so there's no choice for me....

火柴天堂

2009-01-02T01:30:00.000-08:00

walking in the cold and snow of the night time
with a matches warming my dream and heart
walking step by step wif lonely feeling

a pack of matches burning my heart
cant stop myself from walking forward
wind thorn cut my face , dragging my feet
how long still i can stay any longer

who will buy my matches
who will be a hope that lighten my matches
who will be the 1 who buys my loneliness
who will be the 1 who cures my sadness

each time lighten my matches
cant stop myself from seeing mother's word for me
saying that u hv to be brave,
saying that u hv to be strong nt to be afraid
saying that u hv to stray from this

mother's holding ur hand
walking back to home
sleeping in the warmth of paradise

Do not test my patience degrees

2008-12-30T04:27:00.000-08:00

my patience is nt tat good as wat u hv expected..i cant read tru ur mind, i cant find out wat is ur intention..i jz hope u wont be so childish, past is dy a past..u cant change anything..i cant force myself to treat u good...i cant make myself to hv 2 faces..i believe u wont want to see it..pls dun involve everyone in this matter..i beg u~i am damn....freaking.....tiring of u...wat u wan to say,jz say to me..dun ask others to say it to me..asking others to scold me?? u hope to get from my responses..n yet u can tell others bout the reason why i didnt go back last time..wat a damn reason u tell bebe..if i can go back, i will find wateva way to go back..wat u did hv made me very frustrating..very hate u...i hv been sad for many many weeks becus of wat u hv did..
bebe, i wont blame u..i noe u like him so much,so u will help him..but it is dy too over...i dunwan to spoil our frenship, i noe u re a very understanding person, in fact, i did ntg wrong..i hv the rights not to explain so much..if u dun believe wat i hv told u, then i no need to explain so much..if i hv been talking to u rudely n angrily last nite, i apologized..i hope u understand..all the rude words u hv said to me last nite really hurts me...u nver treat me like tat b4...sobsob

26 dec

2008-12-25T13:24:00.000-08:00

duno why i wake up so early today?later i will go for a interview..but i never scare bout it..it keep refreshing in my mind,before sleeping..i will think of it, after i wake up..i still will think of it~sigh..dun think bout it anymore..but sometimes ur mind is telling u wat u wan, wat u hope to hv, wat u wish to do..but i wont make myself to hv this..

merry xmas..

2008-12-24T09:31:00.000-08:00

merry xmas..today is christmas day..i din go anywhere to celebrate..i m not mind whether to celebrate or not to celebrate due to frustration, i went to "bull" together wif esther..haha..we was sort of crazy jz now coz we started to "lepak" at jj from 3 sth til 7 sth..haha...kinda tiring today...sorry to david..coz cant acc u out...i was been outside from 8 morning til 7 sth in the night...
yesterday jz checked out the examination timetable..omg...15,17,19,21...so close...hectic...depress...sigh~btw, good luck to everyone la....

18 december 08

2008-12-17T09:19:00.000-08:00

it seems like i wasnt a lucky girl...i wont face any health problem when i was in my hometown..but after come to kl..many health problems occur...when i was in diploma and lived inside hostel, i am not tat good in eating spicy foods..but sometimes it seems like there is no many choices for me to choose..especially mamak stall...then after eating those oily and spicy foods, i will run to toilet..the most terribly was when u slept very well and tight in the midnite time, ur stomach starts to pain causing u so suffering...this is wat i was faced last time..then in diploma second year, i was been send to kch to hav a stomach operation.....i remember tat i was been adviced to go to check my body when in kl..but my mum dun allow me to do so..luckily i listen to my mum's advice..coz i gonna go on wif my life in kl with this kind of bad new??n yet the exam was around the corner..i was not trying to avoid from knowing this fact..but the problem is i duno whether i can handle and face this kind of problem in kl..i m nt tat tough and strong girl...i will think alots til affect my studies..
jz now "HE" called me again..talking to me about visiting ah ling..how could u been so dare???still dare to tell me tat u wanna visit her...ah ling is a good fren of mine, but unfortunely she has leave us jz in a sudden which i will never expect..and stun for few days aftering hearing this kind of bad news...reading the letter u send to me, i was really goin insane, speechless and moody til i cant stand any longer,so i say out everything to my roommates and cry...i miss u alots..ah ling....i dunwan to think about it anymore n yet "u" still wanna remind me bout it..u re spoiling my mood..u noe?u cant blame me of unforgiving u..jz tat i really cant forgiv u..hearing from ur call, ur appearance makes me think of her..so pls stop from it...i noe u will read it..jz hope u understand..we was been a good fren before..but after this case..i really duno how to talk to u anymore..i was better off without u..so pls jz let me go....tat's all i want to say..
drinking teh tarik causing me hard to breathe..sis, u re right..i really cant drink so much caffeine..there was a period i never touch teh chi..and nescafe..i really dunlike to drink coffee..but my mum and dad like to drink it..i duno why..jz i will drink it while having exam..coz coffee is only a way for me to fully gain my energy..haha..if not i will fall asleep easily..haha..

sick girl

2008-12-16T12:31:00.000-08:00

i was feeling sick for few days..since last few days, i didn't have appetite to eat, only can manage to finish half of my porridge yesterday..another half leave for today..yesterday was a most terrible day for me..i was vomited for three times..even my lecturer was a bit weird why i keep goin out..nex time shudnt sit tat in front, then being asking by my fren to seek for doc..at first i dun feel like wanna go..but after being convinced, i change my mind coz i cant continue to be sick at this moment..i still have to face tax test on thursday..
thankz for those who is concerning me for this few days..my sis~haha..my 2 roommates and others fren..my roommate cooked me a delicious soup mee yesterday..haha, even today i did sth wrong..but she never "bongkar Rahsia"...if not, i will be scolded...xp

14 dec

2008-12-14T05:06:00.001-08:00

no idea wat the hell is happening to me...i dun eat much recently.....jz dunhv appetite to eat, i got ntg to worry..my fren says tat i m worrying bout my exam on thu, i dunthink it is a reason for me to eat so less..i only can eat half of my normal meals...sigh~

what is life?

2008-12-11T22:48:00.000-08:00

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

10 dec 08

2008-12-10T05:17:00.000-08:00

ntg so special nowadays..jz having normal life...no relationship problem..no studies problem..no family problem...ntg to worry..kinda like this kind of life. But exam final is coming soon, so gonna suffer tat time..sigh~Due to examination crashing wif CNY, i cant go back to hometown to celebrate CNY..and hearing tat my bros re goin to acc me at kl here..a fren told me tat we might finish our exam before cny..but still i cant go back,coz my bros sacrifice to acc me here,i cant go back first n leave them here...no more visiting wif my hometown frens, no more goin back to engkilili...jz can accept this fate lo~go back to celebrate chap goh meh~~

same boat~u ---me---him~

2008-11-15T05:48:00.000-08:00

today is a boring day..i was chasing drama with my roommate this few di understand "ur" feelings, i m now experiencing it..i am sorry for tat..but u did ntg at all~never ask, so i dono wat re u thinking recently..falling in lov with a person is very suffering right?but sorry to tell u tat i dunhv means tat i really dunhv..so i m facing same situation now~

14 nov

2008-11-14T01:38:00.000-08:00

jz back from watching madagascar with my housemates at klcc..it was kinda funny, it seems like everyone was laughed from the beginning til the end of the movie..but i was indifferent..i laugh sometimes, but i din laugh all the time..maybe i am not really interesting in cartoon..or there's a reason behind it??
i duno why i hv tat kind of .....i hope i dunhv..jz it want to come, then it will come..izzit really true??..i duno wat's u thinking...i really cant expect so much~i so hate tat i was busy with assignments, courseworks every sem..but now i realize tat i cant be so free too..making me thinking more n more..i dunwan myself to be like tat..
yesterday went to play badminton with my housemates again, trying to smash as many as i can..til hving bodyache today..and this morning my throat is kidding wif me?almost cant talk this morning..luckily my lovely roommate hs made me cool drink, thankz yeah~

a poem

2008-11-11T03:07:00.000-08:00

i never really know u,
u were jz another fren,
but when i got to noe u,
i let mixed feelings mend
i couldn't accept new love
coz i couldn't accept myself wif it
i hv to forget my previous love
and giv love another try?
so m i really fallen in lov wif u?
that's still a question mark..
i never meant to
let it come too fast
i dont dare to ask
i dont expect ur love
and i hv no right to expect it

so that is a end of it?

To a best fren

2008-11-07T04:22:00.000-08:00

hearing tat u re goin to melbourne soon..there 's a word describing my feeling..sad..but tat's ur dream to further ur studies there..since i hv known u til now, u always put ur studies at first place..so i m sure tat u wish to go there to further ur studies...hmm, i cant deny tat i m not really tat close with u like last time..coz we re in diff places, seldom meet each other..but i still treat tis girl as best fren..last nite was talking to u in phone, my tears was dropped..dono why..another best fren mag told me tat we only hv one chance to meet each others,tat is tis coming december..aftertat,she might not come back very oftenly...if really do,she will go back to kuching but not sibu..how sad i m after hearing tis kind of news~then ahbe..u re goin to melbourne..i m thinking tat if u also leave, who m i goin to bluff with,fooling around with,playing with, when i go back to hometown..who can i find?i dono~when i hv problems, who can i talk to??i m goin to sibu next year feb 7, then u told me tat u gona flight on feb 11..speechless~

To be:
reaching new place will be a stranger place for u..jz learn to get used to it..remember to take good care of ur health..dun be too stress yeah..if got problem, i will always be a listener to u...hope i can get back the same AHBE tat i was known...haha...good luck~

no more please

2008-10-29T09:24:00.001-07:00

this few days so hot..hot til u re sweating at night time..sigh..eventhough i m living so high..but it is useless...this sem is quite free, we only hv 4 subs..so kinda free..coz courseworks coming soon..get ready to fight for it..
somebody is keeping on criticizing me nowadays..i duno why..and i am very appreciate tat u dun do it..last few days, i was lost control,and freaking angry while i was playing uno together wif my housemates..sometimes, u gonna take care of other feelings..it doesnt u wanna throw the words out,then u jz speak out..it gonna make the situation around "LAME"i admit tat my patientness isn't good nowadays..so 你越要那样做，别怪我的所作所为。。a nice mood being spoiled so easily..u like tat kind of feelings...

breathe without air

2008-10-21T20:52:00.000-07:00

breathe without air

tell me how if
i breathe without air
if i should die before i awake
becus u leave my pain here

i am all alone here
didnt wanna leave
how do u expect me to live without u
breathe without u

this is how i feel if u ain't here
got me out here in the water so deep
how do i breathe without air
breathe breathe
without air air

no more next person

2008-10-21T20:32:00.000-07:00

no more next person~but how to control it??who noes it??no one noes it..and no one will ever noe it..
now sitting inside library and online, doing nothing..so boring..later still gonna attend 4 hrs tutorial class...when u dont hv tat kind of mood to attend the class happily,then u will know tat kind of feeling..
i cant compare between the diploma classmates with adv diploma classamates..but i prefer to go back to last time...dono why~miss loo them...missing the time when we went to redang last time..
tml results gonna come out..but i m not worrying, not like last time..in my expectation, i might fail one sub..if making careless mistakes, might be 2,3 and more...fail all..see how am i goin to handle it...stupid idiot saying stupid words here...