瞒准的性格？？

表面上快乐开朗，其实心里多半比较痛苦

痛苦多来自于家庭的　不合和在友情、爱情上的失意

显得很心软的话，也许是因为自己的慷慨招来些对自己的伤害

心软、善良，畏缩地给别人帮助，以致于形成小家子的假象

很少有向亲人说出心声的机会，因此，朋友在眼中更是显得尤为重要

是一个非常和平、不记仇，不会为此对你进行报复

一个伤感者的角色，爱听悲伤的音乐、喜欢广阔的东西

人情绪变化不太稳定，他们善解人意，能够短时间内进入不同的状态

人一生大都不顺心，他们生活的条件和机遇总不是和他们浓烈的人格

不太重视衣着外表，实际，认为我有内在，还怕什么外表差，不到衣服实在是不能穿时，很少去购衣
体不太好，不过消化很良好，心脏不太好

不安静的夜

薰衣草精油香味 漫游在思绪的周围
我还在回忆里徘徊 搜寻你的妩媚
笔跟纸甜蜜亲嘴 它们忘情的搞暧昧
你的名字写一万遍 祝福要怎么写
你带走整个世界 只留下这黑夜
冷了要拥抱谁 眼前只剩一条棉被
爱情岌岌可危 所有付出灰飞烟灭
谁都别来安慰 我不想承认我有流泪
爱到鞠躬尽瘁 这条路走得很疲惫
想要赶过伤悲 自己却在终点前崩溃
记事本往事一堆 掺杂我多少的憔悴
最后空白无言以对 形容孤独滋味
你带走整个世界 只留下这黑夜
冷了要拥抱谁 眼前只剩一条棉被
爱情岌岌可危 所有付出灰飞烟灭
谁都别来安慰 我不想承认我有流泪
爱到鞠躬尽瘁 这条路走得很疲惫
想要赶过伤悲 自己却在终点前崩溃
爱情岌岌可危 所有付出灰飞烟灭
谁都别来安慰 我不想承认我有流泪
爱到鞠躬尽瘁 这条路走得很疲惫
想要赶过伤悲 自己却在终点前崩溃

sibu, i m back soon~

mom is always a powerful girl in front of me..once u dun agree wat she wan u to do, sure there will be sth bad happen again~but tis time i got no reason to reject, actually i never think of goin back to hometown on may, but a calling from mom n said: " i dy booked flight ticket for u...on 7th of may, then back on 24th of may..LOL~~wat m i gonna say again?i jz say oh~ok lo...once i hear it, dono whether i shud be happy or nt..happy coz i no need stay at kl and yet all my housemates wont be around on tat period, unhappy coz i m goin to meet someone very vital to me..haha~my dear...my honey..my beloved uncle..T.T~~good luck ba~~

23 apr

2 more to go...everything goes well tis time..
sigh sigh, my laptop hvn reach, i m thinking of goin back to hometown..but i might join the langkawi trip wif my frens and housemates, n yet cant estimate when do tat god damn dell company send my laptop to my kl home..shit~ ntg can i do at all. kl weather hot like shit...living at dessert?? no raining for few days dy...til gonna take bath at night time coz too hot til "SWEAT"???
wat to do if nt goin back to hometown??go here to lepak a while..then go there to lepak a while..lol..go to travel around west malaysia?? considering~~
there is something tat i cant change...hv became a fate for me..tml will be better??or WORSE? i dono..no one noe, only god know..so jz live happily ba~

feelingless

how can one explain tis?
how can one show the feeling
that re no longer anymore?
how is the feelingless ruptures?
sometimes,
there shud be some emotion coming
tat made u go numb
used to be passionate
with everything tat would come
it hurts when see u
it wont hurts when din see u
it was used to be like tat last time
but as feelingless as wat i hv nw
feelingless..feelingless......

exam exam exam

geo asked me whether do my emotion n mind was still being bothered recently..my ans is i m only hv time n right to think of my exam stuffs..parents keep calling everyday,asking me wat m i doin..got do my revision or nt..i know they re worrying, n yet i still dare to fool around, dont wanna do my revision, still thinking of other stupid matters? i dunwan to let them worry, so gonna try my best to handle exam tis time..

09 apr

FInally booked my laptop..haha, yahoor~~ straightly send to my home nex week..m waiting for it ..hmm, leave few more weeks..nothing has made me stressed except exam..deserve for it..btw, thinking of whether goin back to hometown on may or nt. it might be less than 2 weeks, gosh..sitting at kl home aso nothing to do, goin back hometown aso ntg to do..dad n mom asked me to decide myself..

2 april

Standing alone under sunshine
seeing smiley face all around
supposing to be one of them
do you ever think of it?
do you every try of it?
listening to every single word
all advices have came
do you ever listen to it?
decision is under your control
do you ever control it?
or you was been controlled?
jumping out from hole
everything will be more clearly
everything will be more smooth
everything will be fine
you are supposed to be ONE of them