recent life

seeing u smile,warming my heart..passing day by day with schooling life..a english presentation had jz passed yesterday,being praised by tutor with "overall ok"?before that, i keep on practicing with my groupmates again and again..but some of us wasn't serious, so do i..keep on laughing..so uncontrollable..but when go into tutor's room, everything should be goin with seriousness,we did quite well..thankz godness, my own gang has been successfully transfer to group 10....
to be continued....

passing day by day, my daylife 's duty is go to school to attend lectures and tutorials class..recently, i dont hv tat kind of mood to go..donno why..i hope tat i can go back to diploma time..eventhough there's nothing difference with how i really cant mix in with other classmates..it takes time..but i am really boring with my school life now. we are hangin in and out in a group. not a wholly cooperative group~sigh~in every english lesson class, the tutor nearly asked us to present a role play..lol..we got to stand in front and do our presentation...a bit unbrave..haha..for every role play..i have been acted as the one who scold ppls..lol..a fren was seems like unhapi nowadays..i donno how to convince her, as her fren..i can accompany her,be her listener..might give some opinion..but the last decision is still urs. past is already a past~ A good fren from hometown jz "leave me" i was suffering from sadness last time, but wat can i do?crying everyday?i did last time, but now i am more optimistic.. relationship's problem always occur in our lives, it is jus depends on how u look on it. if u do care for each others, appreciate each others..dont wait til u lost him or her,then only u appreciate..
we have no right to ask when a sorrow comes, ' why did this happen to me?' unless we ask the same question for every joy that comes our ways..I would rather be able to appreciate things i can not have than to have things i am not able to appreciate.

u only realise those who re suffering,but do u realize tat tat's someone beside u aso suffering..who treats u gud,who treats u bad..u shud noe it..u care for someone who re never care bout u,but ignore someone who are always care bout u..always want to help u to release ur burden..even if he or she cant, but at least he or she try..

my creation

hiding inside heart
for a long time
passing day by day
staying happily wif frenz
struggling while alone
what can i do?
anger comes when hear it
avoiding's not a good way
but can i avoid?
saying out is not a good solution
causing big trouble to occur
looking into your eyes
do i able to figure wat's u thinking?
hoping u think the same way
but is it possible?
hope this life could be pure bliss
in this place, happiness does exist?
or only sadness exist?
i need to breathe
do you giv me a chance to breathe?
decision is still decision.
do i have a chance to make myself?

hoping to walk on the beach
playing beside beach
fooling around beside beach
watching a beautiful beach
relaxing my mind
is it possible now?

I M A RUBBISH??

being a rubbish for a few weeks...from AFA to AAC, actually it will be a more relaxing day for me..coz afa is really very tough..but attending aac lec aso very blur..a bit hard to catch up, we all expect those lecturers to revise back wat they hv taught before...sigh!!ish~~no notes for few weeks....sigh..sitting inside lecture hall without notes,and feeling sleepy,cold....sigh..aac tutorials list hv already came out for 3rd time,and i m wondering why they dunwan to update the new timetable on tarc website..how can they expect us to squeeze inside sbs office outside to copy our timetable...sigh...

heartbroken

Heartbroken,
Nothing better than to sleep, i cant forget that you are gone, i cant forget ur smile, i cant forget u,
you told me tat u will be fine, you talked to me happily before,cried sadly and called me immediately,cant forget u hanging up with me last time, cant forget that we did everything in school last time, cant forget tat we studied together last time, cant forget everything with u..i can stand for everything..but i never expect that u will left me without a word. i want to forget, but i cant..how could u been so cruel?leaving without a word..close my eyes, but keep on thinking and thinking. i block my ears, from hearing the new..i dont want to hear anything, but been said tat i m avoiding this fact. dont want anything, jz wan ur back..can u?
crying everyday..at here and yet cant go back.who can understand me? i am trying to smile happily everyday,but still there is a knife inside my heart..i need time to cure myself.

happy or sad?release or getting more burden?

i went to sbs office to ask for reason,y i cant go in afa...but they cant give me a exact answer...saying tat they are not the one who arrange it.so i decide to go to find the programme supervisor,but she is not in..by the way, i meet miss ng, and hav a conversation with her..she is an experienced person who pursued acca last time, and she encouraged me to study aac..coz both aac and afa re the same.jz aac need to take longer times..but for afa, u only can bring one failing sub to second year,if u cant cope with it,then u need to repeat..tat is very wasting time and money...that's wat she told me...4 things :you hope to graduate early?or you hope to graduate late a bit?or you wanna graduate successfully?or you cant graduate successfully? no matter which path u re taking, if u dun study hard and smart..the outcome will be still the same..she said tat if she still hav a chance,she will choose aac...why want to make ur life so difficult..?but if u re very very confident with urself, then choose afa..

leave or stay?

i was making decision from last sem til now..i hv successfully graduate. it is a happy new for me..but wat a sad new is why i cant go in afa?all of them said tat aac is not bad too..jz takes longer time to finish it by pursuing acca together...
my mum suggests me to go to curtin miri...but she wont force me this time...she allows me to let me make decision myself..i hv a gang of frens..my dear roommates...i really very "she bu de" if i leave.but curtin...i need to choose again..i hate to make decision.god...tell me wat shud i do?be, my best fren is studying at curtin...a hard chance for me to study together wif her..but i hv more frens in kl..i need time to think~~