Do not test my patience degrees

my patience is nt tat good as wat u hv expected..i cant read tru ur mind, i cant find out wat is ur intention..i jz hope u wont be so childish, past is dy a past..u cant change anything..i cant force myself to treat u good...i cant make myself to hv 2 faces..i believe u wont want to see it..pls dun involve everyone in this matter..i beg u~i am damn....freaking.....tiring of u...wat u wan to say,jz say to me..dun ask others to say it to me..asking others to scold me?? u hope to get from my responses..n yet u can tell others bout the reason why i didnt go back last time..wat a damn reason u tell bebe..if i can go back, i will find wateva way to go back..wat u did hv made me very frustrating..very hate u...i hv been sad for many many weeks becus of wat u hv did..
bebe, i wont blame u..i noe u like him so much,so u will help him..but it is dy too over...i dunwan to spoil our frenship, i noe u re a very understanding person, in fact, i did ntg wrong..i hv the rights not to explain so much..if u dun believe wat i hv told u, then i no need to explain so much..if i hv been talking to u rudely n angrily last nite, i apologized..i hope u understand..all the rude words u hv said to me last nite really hurts me...u nver treat me like tat b4...sobsob

26 dec

duno why i wake up so early today?later i will go for a interview..but i never scare bout it..it keep refreshing in my mind,before sleeping..i will think of it, after i wake up..i still will think of it~sigh..dun think bout it anymore..but sometimes ur mind is telling u wat u wan, wat u hope to hv, wat u wish to do..but i wont make myself to hv this..

merry xmas..

merry xmas..today is christmas day..i din go anywhere to celebrate..i m not mind whether to celebrate or not to celebrate due to frustration, i went to "bull" together wif esther..haha..we was sort of crazy jz now coz we started to "lepak" at jj from 3 sth til 7 sth..haha...kinda tiring today...sorry to david..coz cant acc u out...i was been outside from 8 morning til 7 sth in the night...
yesterday jz checked out the examination timetable..omg...15,17,19,21...so close...hectic...depress...sigh~btw, good luck to everyone la....

18 december 08

it seems like i wasnt a lucky girl...i wont face any health problem when i was in my hometown..but after come to kl..many health problems occur...when i was in diploma and lived inside hostel, i am not tat good in eating spicy foods..but sometimes it seems like there is no many choices for me to choose..especially mamak stall...then after eating those oily and spicy foods, i will run to toilet..the most terribly was when u slept very well and tight in the midnite time, ur stomach starts to pain causing u so suffering...this is wat i was faced last time..then in diploma second year, i was been send to kch to hav a stomach operation.....i remember tat i was been adviced to go to check my body when in kl..but my mum dun allow me to do so..luckily i listen to my mum's advice..coz i gonna go on wif my life in kl with this kind of bad new??n yet the exam was around the corner..i was not trying to avoid from knowing this fact..but the problem is i duno whether i can handle and face this kind of problem in kl..i m nt tat tough and strong girl...i will think alots til affect my studies..
jz now "HE" called me again..talking to me about visiting ah ling..how could u been so dare???still dare to tell me tat u wanna visit her...ah ling is a good fren of mine, but unfortunely she has leave us jz in a sudden which i will never expect..and stun for few days aftering hearing this kind of bad news...reading the letter u send to me, i was really goin insane, speechless and moody til i cant stand any longer,so i say out everything to my roommates and cry...i miss u alots..ah ling....i dunwan to think about it anymore n yet "u" still wanna remind me bout it..u re spoiling my mood..u noe?u cant blame me of unforgiving u..jz tat i really cant forgiv u..hearing from ur call, ur appearance makes me think of her..so pls stop from it...i noe u will read it..jz hope u understand..we was been a good fren before..but after this case..i really duno how to talk to u anymore..i was better off without u..so pls jz let me go....tat's all i want to say..
drinking teh tarik causing me hard to breathe..sis, u re right..i really cant drink so much caffeine..there was a period i never touch teh chi..and nescafe..i really dunlike to drink coffee..but my mum and dad like to drink it..i duno why..jz i will drink it while having exam..coz coffee is only a way for me to fully gain my energy..haha..if not i will fall asleep easily..haha..

sick girl

i was feeling sick for few days..since last few days, i didn't have appetite to eat, only can manage to finish half of my porridge yesterday..another half leave for today..yesterday was a most terrible day for me..i was vomited for three times..even my lecturer was a bit weird why i keep goin out..nex time shudnt sit tat in front, then being asking by my fren to seek for doc..at first i dun feel like wanna go..but after being convinced, i change my mind coz i cant continue to be sick at this moment..i still have to face tax test on thursday..
thankz for those who is concerning me for this few days..my sis~haha..my 2 roommates and others fren..my roommate cooked me a delicious soup mee yesterday..haha, even today i did sth wrong..but she never "bongkar Rahsia"...if not, i will be scolded...xp

14 dec

no idea wat the hell is happening to me...i dun eat much recently.....jz dunhv appetite to eat, i got ntg to worry..my fren says tat i m worrying bout my exam on thu, i dunthink it is a reason for me to eat so less..i only can eat half of my normal meals...sigh~

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Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
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Life is sorrow, overcome it.
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Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

10 dec 08

ntg so special nowadays..jz having normal life...no relationship problem..no studies problem..no family problem...ntg to worry..kinda like this kind of life. But exam final is coming soon, so gonna suffer tat time..sigh~Due to examination crashing wif CNY, i cant go back to hometown to celebrate CNY..and hearing tat my bros re goin to acc me at kl here..a fren told me tat we might finish our exam before cny..but still i cant go back,coz my bros sacrifice to acc me here,i cant go back first n leave them here...no more visiting wif my hometown frens, no more goin back to engkilili...jz can accept this fate lo~go back to celebrate chap goh meh~~