defeated

being defeated..i duno whether i still can handle the following 3 subs...lost confidence..frustrating...stressful...i did nt do well in my first paper this morning, this paper is my favourite sub..i duno wat hv i wrote this morning..my mind was totally blanked jz nw, n yet i giv away 10 marks.i cant even remember a basic formula..really gonna slap myself.. Thinking back when i was still living inside hostel, a fren asked me:" when can i get the jenny who i hv known back?" i only tell her to wait...