wat a nervous and happy day for me

finally i can put down a BIG ROCK in my heart..finally i can graduate..before this, i was moody everyday,worrying everyday and everyday.. like passing my day with hopeless and helpless feelings..many of my frens said tat worrying is useless..a fact is sooner goin to be a fact..i ever tried not to be like tat..mybe a person keep on giving me pressure,causing me to be like tat..she was over worrying.
yesterday my roommates told me tat my face was totally black..like gonna killing ppl..then my ex-roommate hs invited me to sing k..very sorry to hear tat ys and yh goin to repeat, might continue or might not..making my mood more down..so i joined them.we took metro bus to there..suddenly my roommate called me and told me tat results already out. by the way, i decide to check after sing k..but i cant wait..very impatient,so i asked her to help me check..waiting and waiting..then she called me 2 times, but the line very lousy..the calls automatically hang up..hearing her voice like very down.i call her finally she tell me that i pass all..i thought she juz wan to make me happy..but it 's a fact.. i nearly wanna jump inside bus..but there's alots of ppls there...alots of my fren hv passed all..wat a happy news for me..

police never arrest criminals without the PROOF...if without proof, they cant arrest them..surely they will go to investigate and collect proof before taking actions..so do human's act..the truth is like tat, u got no rights to critisize without looking at real situation..looking at wat's really happening..no judgement please,before u understand the real situation..a person's mood is already on the top, plus the words coming out from your month will be more hurting..i really dunlike it.
recently , i am living my life with nothing interesting, boring and waiting for a important day to come..moody girl~very thankful for u all's advises..but no need to advice me anymore..it is useless..no one can help me now..even my family.i juz hopes this kind of days faster over..no one can really understand wat i m really facing...no one is believing tat i will XXX...i told them tat i m worrying bout my results, they all said surely i will overcome it this time, but for myself..i noe wat i hv did..wat kind of careless i hv made..why m i so worrying this time?i hv no confidence...

........miss dot girl~

i was with my family last few days..we went to sungei wang,times square, midvalley~not kinda hv tat mood to shoppingl...dono why..mybe of my results hvn release out..so kinda nervous and worrying now~i m not goin back to hometown this time,so they come~i am two kind of person~insider and outsider are totally diff..insider can be pessimistic,outsider can be optimistic..i do not show the real mood of myself~last time when i was in secondary sch, i showed it all out..either i am moody or not moody~now i m no longer like last time..not til tat day, i cant put down a "big rock" in myself~hope my roommates faster come back, i cant be alone~if not,i think alots..i nearly cry while shopping together wif my family at klcc..i hv bought a clothes which cost hundred sth~wow~i like it so much..then bought a formal clothes and a pair of shoes at ts~now sitting at home,onlining everyday, sleeping ,eating everyday~feeling tat there's ntg meaningful in my life..so boring~only hv to wait til nex week,everything will be fine or worse than ever that i hv expected..go wif a way...or lose direction(maybe) guys..u might see me after tat or might not see me after tat..seriously~never joke~.............................................

a hard day to pass

becoming alone at mu again~i dont want to be like tat~hope papa and mama faster come..scold me or wat aso nvm..jz dont let me be alone here..making me more sad and down~shudnt come back so early..miss you all..guyz...chun,loo,pling,esther...must keep in touch yeah..
i hope it wont happen to me..pray and pray everyday..worrying and worrying everyday..i cant stop thinking~wat to do?sam..come back fast..i hv did a ridiculous thing today,causing me sleeping for a whole noon time~having headache now~

a careless

a careless will disrupt my future planning~wat to do?i hv no more mood~no more energy to do anything~a happy makan besar and a happy trip is coming soon~how m i goin to treat all my fren?happy smile?sad face?f lost confidence..if it really happens, how m i goin to tell my parent?before this, i was given a advice to a fren..she is very sad and angry~but now i m experiencing wat she has experienced before this..m i useless?i need to be together wif my fren..if i am alone,surely i will think alots of things..i keep on thinking and thinking..sometimes, it is really uncontrollable~alots of frens gave me advice too~one of them told me..no matter how a person is smart, he or she will still fail, no one is perfect in this world..i heard it many times before..maybe it is a bit useful for me..but i m still the same,moody everyday~i wanna do sth in order to hv a relief..but wat i can do is waiting~waiting and waiting~but i only scare tat my emotion will reach the most top and my own limits..i really dunno wat to do after tat~mybe i will make myself drunk..~~~~