30/08/2008

sorry for being rude..i am sick yet gonna do my responsibilities to finish all my revisions...i admit tat i will be very moody,even bad tempering while having exam..still remember a fren said sth to me..she said:" can i have my jenny back like before?"means tat i m not the one u know very well when i m in depression,in exam period...easily get angry..tat's me~last time my hostel frens seems like dont know me and said tat i have changed when exam was around..i never deny tat...last nite being scolded by brother n asking me not to drink coffee..i seldom drink comparing to last time when i was still staying in hostel..i am not 3 years old child..i m gonna be 20 years old soon..i know wat m i doin..even after doin tat, i will be responsible for its consequences..i never drink for tis few days..so dont keep on saying to me...

sick plus exam~cham

second time~~last time flu..now coughing..i wont make myself to fall..i still hv to face my exam...jz leave me alone..do wat i wanna do..i dunlike to be disturbing..dun advice..dun keep on reminding me..jz let me be....u all dun keep on advicing me..i know wat m i doin~stress with my studies and yet keep on hearing ur all blablabla..no more thankz

可爱的housemate

tracy你帮我看看为什么我的电脑酱慢？
哦。。中trojan了。。。
什么是trojan？。。。。。（讲你又不懂，解释你又不明白。。。）
virus的一种。。。
中了会怎样？会慢咯。。。。（你不是问我为什么会慢吗？）
那要怎么办？
我用anti-virus帮你scan然后看能不能delete（难道你想喂他们吃东西?...或者你不要开电脑一年看他饿不饿死？）
酱就是在scan着了？好像好慢..
是酱紫的啦。。。（要不要我拿你的电脑敲墙壁敲那些virus出来？这样比较块）
还没好啊。。。要等到几时。。。。
等多一下啦。。。
可是人家要用。。。
你多file嘛。。。。
怎么还没好（每隔2分钟一次）。。。。。。。（问这么多次，你不闷？）
好了吗？
耐心点。。。（你再问我就打7你）
好了也！好了也！。。。。。（酱兴奋做什么。。。。）
ok，可以了。。。
就酱？
对。。。（不然你想怎样？）
真的吗？。。。
真的。。。
不会慢了？。。。。。（懒惰踩你。。。）
哇真的快很多。。。
tracy你很厉害，下次我不用拿去电脑店了，找你就好。。。。
哦。。。。。（，知道不帮你）
10分钟后。。。tracy，你还可以弄他快点吗？
去upgrade你的ram。。。
什么是ram。。。算了。。。
当我没讲过。。。。
表酱嘛。。。
告诉我嘛。。。。。。。。。。（我想死）
不然你教我咯。。。酱我就不用酱辛苦次次叫你了（很委屈你啦现在？），有时候你又不在家。。。
看怎样咯。。。
你有什么问题就问我咯。。。
（每次还不是只会喊我，让后自己跑到远远。。。
放心，电脑的virus不会传染给人脑的。。。）
tracy！！！！你帮我看看为什么酱紫的。。。表跟我讲啦，我不会的，你帮我fix一下。。。
k，我等下过来。。。（20年后你也不可能学会）
快点。。。。
哦。。。（讲等下不会听的是吗。。。放几只virus进去你就知死...)

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！（可以媲美高音歌手）
为什么你换衣不锁门的！
!!。。。。。。（你怕我是男的，还是你自己是男的）
反正家里没男生。。。
你不可以酱啦。。。。
你懂不懂这样。。。。（省略500字）
你可以关回门先吗？？（叫到酱大声，怕死人家不懂我换衣是吗？）。。。。。。。
下次记得锁门.
【关门出去】
（你出迟一步我拿衣架丢你！）

another poem by me

it 's been a lifetime
since we've known each other for so long time
hiding a locked secret & pains inside heart
growing all by myself in this journey
without your help
sad and cry through the nights
hoping you will not make such decision
but it is a fact in the end
afraid to predict tat
something is being unexpected gonna happen
all i hv to do is to be to tough
accepting and facing it
better than struggling inside
there 's only a life for me
thanks for being there when nobody was
thanks for listening to me when down
thanks for being my friend

study study study

long time no updating my blog..coz busy with revisions these days..so sien~~everday wake up,study , eat then online a while..then study again~~so sien with this life..and yet keep on studying but seems like i still cant finish,coz there is really alots for us to study..thank godness,finally pass my audit..so happy~but some of my frens hv failed it..sorry to hear tat..i know things go quite difficult..but jz face it..it is a life..sometimes , i will "ki siao" with my housemates..so do them..coz studying everyday really is not a favorite for me..hearing tat my mum was sick recently,take care mum..
hope everything goes well....good luck to everyone..add oil in final exam..study smart and study hard

our stories

how to turn the clock back 2 b4~
so that each second can be appreciated
clenched hand and relaxing
waiting for the aircaft to fly over
one by one
do not let ur tears drop
Our stories hv too many unforgettable memories
no matter how we crazy before
do let it keep in ur heart
too many memories to develop
til we cant forget it
do remember it well

know love earlier

I should be around you But not dare to say that
,can say or not say
i am too much more than
pain if listen to my words
recall by thinking u everynight
As early as I know tat love has forgotten to leave
Do you understand me, and so u do not love
Perhaps not simply extraordinary
Even if the time I hv to from now on
For u alone
know love earlier like I have forgotten
You love is never late
Just because love i understand all
love is worth than ever

trying to think in right way

you have ur first time,i hv mine...everyone hv their owns..depends on how we gonna think of it, gonna face it..first time get the most lowest mark in my test, telling u all tat i m not sad is pretending...sitting at balcony for almost one hour, staring at the condo on the mountain, staring at the construction of building...the first thing i will see the far far away from my place..but forget the most nearest thing...tat is the wall in front of me,..i am wondering why those workers are so brave,standing at the top of the half way constructed condo..they are not scare???how about their familys?maybe they are not scare,but ppls beside them are worrying for them..but no choice..they hav to work in order to gain $$...my parent always assert tat those who do not have education will hv jobs like washing toilet, throwing rubbish and so on..but if they can study,but without $$..who dont want to further their studies? if they can afford to study, but dunwan to study..tat is not a good encouragement..
before a successor is sucessful, they must hv failed before..if there is no barriers in this world..then no one will suffer anymore..
i m trying to make myself to think in right way..a fren asked me to be mature..dun see things too seriously, i will learn...thankz anyway

09/08/08

i hv no idea why u wanna do like tat...fun for u??bro told me not to be so kind..i aso hope tat i wont be so kind..but a gud fren has jz leave u..becus of tat SOB..now another fren's turn to repeat the same things as wat hd happen to "HER" last time..what shud i do??everyone asks me to ignore them...a good fren to u..how re u goin to ignore??they seems like will nvr let me go..what u guys did is nothing to do wif me..cant u jz dun report to me if u guys re quarreling or other things else..i dont need to noe..and dunwan to noe it. eventhough u tell me, but we re in difference places, wat u expect me to do..let me go, i m so tiring of these...
i took a walk at klcc jz now..and think alots of things..if there is nothing special happening, i hv already went to sing k jz now..sorry to u tat we hv broke promise..but wat u said jz now was very hurts...before this , i wanna sing k ..but not goin at last..sigh~

wat the hell are u thinking??wat the hell re u trying to do??

wat the hell re u thinking????wat the hell re u trying to do????? why my fren again!!!!!so many girls in this world...why my fren again!!cant u jz get away from my life?????????m tiring of those things...from last time til now...cant u jz stop it??if u guys wanna do anything,quarreling...or even fighting..no need tell me..i dun need to know it...i can be listener,but dun ask me to do anything..i m not ur middle person...

wat the hell are u thinking??wat the hell re u trying to do??

pek chek~

pek chek~~doin tutorial of afa...tough tough tough and yet tml my tutor wanna check it..so tiring, drank a cup of coffee jz now, but why m i still feeling so tiring???sigh~after tis thursday,we can relax lol, then need to proceed to final "WAR"...which will be more suffering..hope to step on my house now...tat's mean i hv finished all the exam..haha..dreaming girl~hope time runs faster...faster, fastest......if i can control the time of this world, how good it will be??i can go forward,and turn backward...changes in accounting policy,error and estimate.....naH~~this is one of the chapter i hv to understand it very very well..then sit for this thursday coursework test....still dreaming~~i need someone to slap, wake me up~tiring~~

boring til write this..haha

to follow someone else's truth is a trap?..the most important is to noe ur own truth,face it and live by it..others may inspice, guide, gv u directions, but u hv to cut ur own way thru the "jungle". u could always be asking others where north is,and some will tell u north is tis way, others will tell u tat north is other way, both would hv been sincere..but u urself hv to find ur true north.
when i m simple i m able to be free from pain or hurt even in adverse situation. wif it , i noe tat i need to remember the past only to the extent tat i hv to learn from it. when something goes wrong and i find myself thinking bout it again n again, i need to remind myself tat all the past experiences re only for me to learn from them, in order to grow up. the past is finished and i dont hv to undergo the sorrow again thinkin bout the past repeatedly.

1st of august

Final exam is coming soon~how could the life be on tat period??i wish i can be at sibu now..doin wateva wat i wan, no one disrupt..watching movie or drama to enjoy myself...go to miri to find ahbe..how i wish i can do this now?? having dinner with mum and daddy everyday,hanging out with old friends from hometown..now is week 10, still leave 7 or 8 weeks, then only i can go back home~ahbe,miss u so much~waiting to fool around with u, this girl is my best fren, a fren whom i cant meet coz studying in difference place,but she still understand me so well..so do me. Together with her, i will not hv so many "fan nao" coz she always fool around with me. Once i meet her, she will start joking wif me, playing wif me..i like this kind of friend.
i am a super duper sensitive girl...maybe tat's my personal characteristic..i never deny tat, everyone is busy with their assignments and tests now~so do me..so no time to do other thing~