working day

today is second day of working..so far so good..jz need to wake up early then gonna get ready to be squeezed like "sardin" inside lrt..then when back home, i hv to face same situation..haiz...my bro asked me to reach lrt within 6 to 6.15pm..coz it might not be tat crowded, so i try to do as wat he told me..but it was still a bit crowded, lol~~
i cant live without u...u noe??really cant live without u....uuuuuuuuu..."YOU", sure everyone will ask whether m i falling in love wif someone..my answer for cant living with you is not a person...but is a medicine...my heart was pained again inside my office jz now, my colleagues was shocked.....luckily i did brought my medicine,or else many ppls will kill me..my beloved uncle(Dr) told me tat must always bring it whereever i go...like a "FU"

changing

Its getting pretty good lately…. yeah, maybe it is really good,maybe it is nt really good……. i don know whether it’s really what i am looking for but the more i feel that that is my vision, the more i think that i am no longer the girl i am……
If i dont grow up and become mature nw…. i know that in future it will be harder 4 me………. but if i do,….. i m sure going to hate 4 the new me…….or maybe i dy hv become mature without my notice and i hv already used to it but i just donwan to accept it……. many of my friends say that i am mature, plan ahead..yeah, looking at this sound pretty good
i just want to be a simple me………. becus as u started to notice tat urself is growing up, you will started to notice that u will lose the old u….. lose the good times when u donhv to think so much ahead, lose the good times when all u hv to do is eat and sleep and that’s it, lose the good times when u and a bunch of frens laughing at urselves doing silly stuff……….
yeah, i also have argued be4 tat all of this will not change because i will try to keep it… really? when u started to use ur mind to think future, u should notice that u re changing…..

12/2/09

last night went into my" favourite" consultation room,meeting my beloved uncle(Dr), dad and mum still can talk wif him for half an hour...then how bout me?suffering inside..sigh~i love to come back to hometown, coz of my relaxing time and do wateva i wan..but nt goin to tat place for checking up....i did it for many times before, n there is no way for me to escape after coming back here..last nite spend few hundred for buying my medicine..worse than those old ppls...i asked my bro a que yesterday:" am i troublesome?"then he told me not to worry bout this..n yet i m still tat young, so must cure it now...
u noe wat kind of person i am,something really cant be forced...u said tat u can do anything as long as i go out on tat day, no matter how hard u re trying to do to get my attention, i only can tell u tat it is useless.

眼淚笑了

Imagine a painness but you did not look back
my tears re being controlled and nt allowed to drop

Memories do not go with u but crowded in my heart
I hv the responsibility to make it deserve 2 be treasured

thankz for letting me down be4
thankz to myself for not thinking too much

my tears hv laughed, who would to be like me?
standing still bravely, searching for light and heat
facing of u hv made me so missing u
becus u are once a guest of mine

is beautiful and perfect
singing a song
when thinking of u
i m nt humble instead
i hv no regrets becus i hv loved u
once, and very deeply

11/2/09

back to hometown lo....ah be...missing u,wish u hv a good journey to melbourne..keep in touch yeah, dun tell me tat u re guilty coz of the presenti only can meet u nex year, so must take good care of urself..remember to buy a webcam yeah, haha..remember our promises..
coming back for 2 weeks, then goin back to work soon lo...

listener rather than speaker

if i care for everything, i will be very tiring and annoying..now, i prefer to be a listener more than a speaker...i m nt goin to giv any comments...since very very long time ago, i have been bothered by ur problems...i doesnt mean tat i dunwan to care for u anymore...jz i hav did my part,n yet u dunwan to listen to me, i really duno wat else can i do. i was once scolded by u becos of him before, but i still treat u as my fren. if u did tat to me last time, i am sure tat i will scold and shoot u back, wont even care bout u coz my patience degree wasnt tat good last time and i m no longer tat "jenny"(who was childish,small gas and impatience girl last time and maybe i gonna thankz someone who has made me changed)...u was cried n talked wif me in phone before,then i advice u..u will listen at first,but i think u forget aftertat....i m tiring of u guys' problem..summore involve me in...quarreling becoz of me??it is nt worthwhile to do tat coz of me..if i m tat "BA GUA", i m goin to tell everyone i noe in this world i really dunlike him..so wat hv u scare of??scare tat i will be together wif him one day?u noe i wont..so wat for u keep mentioning about me in front of him?and he keep do sth tat spoils our friendship....i really dun understand....i has once told u tat , u still hv ur good future...something worth living for, someone worth living for, nt worth living for rubbish ppl, nt worth living for rubbish conflicts, childish conflicts....then u will hv a better life...thankz godness if ur parent let u further ur studies at kl last time, so u wont hav to face this kind of problems....please...wake up for urself..nt for others...

speechless~

since last year til now, wateva conflicts u guys hv, u will tell me, then i will advice u...but this time i m goin to tell u, tat i am speechless...i hope tat i can help, but i m nt able to help u..why u so careless?why u duno how to protect urself??i really feel hopeless towards both of u..i really wish u can learn from ur mistakes and grow up...i hv told u everything tat i supposed to say, but it seems like u never listen, i cant always take care of u, u must noe how to handle ur problem, u are dy goinna be 21 soon..u noe urself cant drink tat much, then why do u still drink so much???if u re at kl here, u will be worsen than wat had happened in sibu..n yet tat person is him again..he said tat he will be responsible for it..i hope he will do it...

be tough

noe u re hiding ur feeling...sometimes i face this kind of problem too..it is nt easy to say forget then forget..but u cant cry, cant be tat weak, mus noe how to protect urself..tat's wat my fren tell me..appreciate everyone beside u, but nt the one who u mention..nt worthwhile for u to do so...i do believe u need time to cure urself.be tough