trying to think in right way

you have ur first time,i hv mine...everyone hv their owns..depends on how we gonna think of it, gonna face it..first time get the most lowest mark in my test, telling u all tat i m not sad is pretending...sitting at balcony for almost one hour, staring at the condo on the mountain, staring at the construction of building...the first thing i will see the far far away from my place..but forget the most nearest thing...tat is the wall in front of me,..i am wondering why those workers are so brave,standing at the top of the half way constructed condo..they are not scare???how about their familys?maybe they are not scare,but ppls beside them are worrying for them..but no choice..they hav to work in order to gain $$...my parent always assert tat those who do not have education will hv jobs like washing toilet, throwing rubbish and so on..but if they can study,but without $$..who dont want to further their studies? if they can afford to study, but dunwan to study..tat is not a good encouragement..
before a successor is sucessful, they must hv failed before..if there is no barriers in this world..then no one will suffer anymore..
i m trying to make myself to think in right way..a fren asked me to be mature..dun see things too seriously, i will learn...thankz anyway

09/08/08

i hv no idea why u wanna do like tat...fun for u??bro told me not to be so kind..i aso hope tat i wont be so kind..but a gud fren has jz leave u..becus of tat SOB..now another fren's turn to repeat the same things as wat hd happen to "HER" last time..what shud i do??everyone asks me to ignore them...a good fren to u..how re u goin to ignore??they seems like will nvr let me go..what u guys did is nothing to do wif me..cant u jz dun report to me if u guys re quarreling or other things else..i dont need to noe..and dunwan to noe it. eventhough u tell me, but we re in difference places, wat u expect me to do..let me go, i m so tiring of these...
i took a walk at klcc jz now..and think alots of things..if there is nothing special happening, i hv already went to sing k jz now..sorry to u tat we hv broke promise..but wat u said jz now was very hurts...before this , i wanna sing k ..but not goin at last..sigh~

wat the hell are u thinking??wat the hell re u trying to do??

wat the hell re u thinking????wat the hell re u trying to do????? why my fren again!!!!!so many girls in this world...why my fren again!!cant u jz get away from my life?????????m tiring of those things...from last time til now...cant u jz stop it??if u guys wanna do anything,quarreling...or even fighting..no need tell me..i dun need to know it...i can be listener,but dun ask me to do anything..i m not ur middle person...

wat the hell are u thinking??wat the hell re u trying to do??

pek chek~

pek chek~~doin tutorial of afa...tough tough tough and yet tml my tutor wanna check it..so tiring, drank a cup of coffee jz now, but why m i still feeling so tiring???sigh~after tis thursday,we can relax lol, then need to proceed to final "WAR"...which will be more suffering..hope to step on my house now...tat's mean i hv finished all the exam..haha..dreaming girl~hope time runs faster...faster, fastest......if i can control the time of this world, how good it will be??i can go forward,and turn backward...changes in accounting policy,error and estimate.....naH~~this is one of the chapter i hv to understand it very very well..then sit for this thursday coursework test....still dreaming~~i need someone to slap, wake me up~tiring~~

boring til write this..haha

to follow someone else's truth is a trap?..the most important is to noe ur own truth,face it and live by it..others may inspice, guide, gv u directions, but u hv to cut ur own way thru the "jungle". u could always be asking others where north is,and some will tell u north is tis way, others will tell u tat north is other way, both would hv been sincere..but u urself hv to find ur true north.
when i m simple i m able to be free from pain or hurt even in adverse situation. wif it , i noe tat i need to remember the past only to the extent tat i hv to learn from it. when something goes wrong and i find myself thinking bout it again n again, i need to remind myself tat all the past experiences re only for me to learn from them, in order to grow up. the past is finished and i dont hv to undergo the sorrow again thinkin bout the past repeatedly.

1st of august

Final exam is coming soon~how could the life be on tat period??i wish i can be at sibu now..doin wateva wat i wan, no one disrupt..watching movie or drama to enjoy myself...go to miri to find ahbe..how i wish i can do this now?? having dinner with mum and daddy everyday,hanging out with old friends from hometown..now is week 10, still leave 7 or 8 weeks, then only i can go back home~ahbe,miss u so much~waiting to fool around with u, this girl is my best fren, a fren whom i cant meet coz studying in difference place,but she still understand me so well..so do me. Together with her, i will not hv so many "fan nao" coz she always fool around with me. Once i meet her, she will start joking wif me, playing wif me..i like this kind of friend.
i am a super duper sensitive girl...maybe tat's my personal characteristic..i never deny tat, everyone is busy with their assignments and tests now~so do me..so no time to do other thing~